The Now… The Change
If everything changes after that, then this must be The Now…The Change.
When I went to send you this email, I went to send it to Mama too. That is when you know this is the now that they talk about being the after.
Mama had a way about her. She spread laughter, joy, wild energy and love. She moved me and mad me madder than a hornet. Made me madder than anybody in town ever thought of doin son!
But I loved her more than anyone until I held my babies. You love your mama like that don’t cha? You were grown in her body. A part of her. There is nobody you are closer to—- other than your own babies. That’s my experience anyway. This grief thing is ever changing. I am mad. I am happy. I am desperately sad but at the same time I feel nothing.
I am moving through my life but there is a disconnect. I’m not all there. I am foggy and afraid. I am peaceful and aware.
I am taking pieces of her. The pieces that were bright and the parts that I felt somehow lacked. How dare me think they lack. What judgement. As if…I…somehow know what is right for another. For me I take these pieces and I build.
I’ve never focused on a budget or been the bread winner of not just a family but merely of my own. We are to be self supporting aren’t we? I guessed and hoped someone would always foot the bill. (because hadn’t they?)
I was raised that way. Today I am trying to break the chain and to do so is like snapping a rubber band in half and at the same time it is the most powerful thing I have ever done.
All power is God. Got it. But this footwork is mine and to work I shall. My granddaddy always said “Work Hard Tayla” I have done that but its been more if a “hustle”. Today I am focused and intentional.
I am taking the lead for our financial stability today. Scariest most liberating moment. I am building with the pieces see.
I am so grateful…..My prayer has been for the last 15 years “God please allow me to financially support my family through music”
It is proving to be there…..almost……So one must continue driving while staying focused in their lane. For me my lane is broad 🙂
My ventures are:
MUSIC: Always MUSIC — to Sing is to Breathe and to breathe is to stay Sober and connected to the Lord. This is the most important job I do outside of Recovery and my little Finger Fam. I must pursue this with all of my might. This is my calling and to not practice my magic is to fall. I no longer fall. I trip. I get up. I always get back up.
HOSTING: I love the events that come our way at the Loretta Lynn Ranch!!!!! Its our home and I enjoy making people feel like it is theirs as well 🙂
ACTING: Just landed another role in a faith based film YAY! Acting for me is just like singing. Its in the same vein.
DUCK RIVER DRONES: Booking and selling what we offer. This is obv new for me. Its a little like actin tho eh 🙂 You know I am just throwin’ you a show of your land/party whatever xoxo
FINGER FARM: Our new store in downtown Waverly. Open to the Public Oct 1st.
It will be my office where I head up Tayla Lynn Enterprises, Duck River Drones and our Animal sales.
The store will have….stay tunes for October 1st.
This will also be the meeting place for “Rise Up”
I am also doing all things EVENTS!!!!
I’m not only hosting events that include Tre and myself but other types too 🙂 Women’s Retreats are kinda our gig and Family oriented Community Events!
I AM SCARED. I AM FAITHFUL!
My husband is running the farm and being a “stay at home daddy” When I am on the road. He is also the man behind the Drones/Animals and just being our dad gum rock y’all. He is so passionate about his family. About this land. About my music. He supports this new way of livin we are doing 100 percent! 😉
I need help y’all. Any push you can give me or any share will help. I sold 4 goats and booked 2 house parties & a drone session today! WHAT??? GOD IS GOOD! God is love! I am without fear baby.
How can you help?
- Host a house party.
- Got a role in a movie? Call me
- Need to host an event? Ok I help you plan it.
- Need some pics of your house, wedding, party, lawn, real estate, Baby daddy cheating? Know someone who might? Tell me. Send em over!
I got goats, pigs and cows. Call me. I bring em over.
I got tables chairs and all things woods son. I will sell em to you LOL
I have NEVER been the baby driver before 😉 Got advice? I won’t listen but feel free to share how much better you would be than me at his email 🙂 I always get at least 5 of those when I send out a newsletter….yet somehow they keep gettin read. Real interesting Clark!
I am determined and I am on fire. When you build pieces of yourself that have always been there but you were to dang scared to do it—when you do it. You know it. You feel it. You move in it. you LOVE.
I love you all.