Even When You Think You Can’t, You CAN
“You never have to drink again.” That is what one wise woman told me once. And when you’re sitting in the middle of things that are hard, as a recovering alcoholic and drug attic and someone who struggles with eating disorders…spends too much money, and body stuff..the first thing that you go to are the things that are gonna ease the pain. I would have done that in the past.
I’m also a lover of Jesus Christ. I love the Lord. And to just be sitting with him and really be hanging onto the women who show me how to walk in sobriety and listening to that holy spirit guide me and tell me what to. I got sober so I could do that — so I could be a granddaughter, a mom… My little boy was sick and I had to rush home at 6 this morning because I stayed in Nashville to be closer to my grandmother. I got sober to be able to do things like that.
My whole point — and I’ve made 50 videos trying to say it right and I don’t think I ever will (it’s progress not perfection) — so I’ll just say: Anybody who is out there struggling with the bottle or drugs, there are those of us out there who have done it, so you can do it too. Without sobriety, I would have nothing with all that it brings me, along with my connection to God and the love that I feel. Even sadness — I get to cling to something that’s real instead of something that’s going to make me feel like crap about myself at the end of the day.
You can do it. Stay sober. Feel free. Love God and stay close to him. And even in sadness, life is so beautiful. To be able to feel with a pure heart and be of service is so huge. One small video from my front porch in Hurricane Mills won’t convey the feeling that my heart is having so I’ll end it at that.