That’s it. I’m changed. You know those moments in life where you are like-hey this is a turning point. I feel it, I am different. That happened to me as I walked out of my home at 7am this morning.
I signed up as a volunteer for our Medina Days Parade. That just meant I contact the peeps who we wanted in the parade, got the coffee, donuts and balloons then line everyone up. Seems easy right? Normal right? What any mom would do right? Not for me. I live a life of Ego mania/chaos & I am too tired to move life and when I am not focused on myself and my music the other parts go to Tru and Jon. I pray daily to have God remove these defects of character, to be of service, to not be so self involved, to just BE….Rare is the occasion that it works. But just for today it did. Really all week it has.
I believe somewhere in my ‘raisin I learned a sense of entitlement. I learned how to guilt Mama and them into doing what I wanted and needed them to do. Wrong yes, did it work, yes. I took that into adulthood. I have lived in bad situations sure, so I would use my surroundings, whatever they may be as a reason not to bloom. Not to take responsibility. Well, moving to Seattle was certainly a time I could take this dirty little defect and use it. But for some reason, this past year, my inner being would not let it work. It was not working. Instead of people being happy and doing what I wanted I made people sad with me. So I stopped. For the first time in my life I stopped doing what has always worked for me and I started doing what works for us. My family. All that to say it led me to volunteering in my community and that made me new friends, made my son happy, made my husband happy. We know so many people in our little community now. My son has like 6 new girlfriends. I made a couple new girlfriends who are real, honest, up front, giving and very kind.Their husbands are that as well. I prayed to have women like this come into my life and here they are. Right down the road 🙂
I have my Music and Advocare which is a service to meet new people, help change lives for the better. If I chooose to use both as a platform of goodness. Today I do.
God answers us. We pray, we get. In HIS timing. We can’t be selfish to get what we want, we have to be of service and there in lies the blessing.
Seems simple. It took 30 plus years for me to get it. Truly, I think I will keep going down this road..I have this new thing in me today-I wanna be a rock in our family. Jon cody started his amazing new business building furniture, I am booked up with shows and we have our cool as cucumber Advocare biz 🙂
I wanna learn more about all of these things. I want to be a rock in my family and community. I wanna keep walking down this road. I don’t know if I ever been on a road I truly thought was worth the hike? I’m not sayin I didn’t feel that way with my boys, but it was different…..They chose me, I chose them and then we were glued together and nothing has broken us yet. We have been pulled to the test of the glue though I tell ya.
A speech from a changed girl into a woman.
Here a little video from me on this subject:
Here is my Advocare site if you wantin some product 🙂