Yes, I got a little dark on ye..I am sar par (sorry and pardon)
The hormones raging through my mind and body take me for a trip 🙂
I am 39.5 weeks along in preggers terms. My actual due date is Thursday.
Doc says I ain’t reaTy to have nur baby yets…He say he very stubborn. This make me sad at first, then I gets tur thinkinT. My baby needs to come in his time and not mine. God knows he need to grow an extra finger and I need time to get my act together.
So we go back Monday to see if I have progressed and then Tuesday he will do an ultrasound, cause baby boy is gettin big..Doc says we may have to do a Csection. Thats fine, whatever is best for baby boy.
Some days it only takes one reading to turn my world around.
I love JOEL OSTEEN, the way he speaks to me, I get him.
So I was readin and prayin up this morninTing and I heard him or HIM loud and clear.
QUIT your bitchin TAYLA VANETTE!!!!!!!! That be my middle name Vanette 🙂
He said, look , you are going through change, it’s a beautiful change.
QUIT going around sayin “baby ain’t never gonna come, music will be surrrr different, I am self pityin soul of boogers.
I am not beating myself up here ya see, I am a changed woman!
MY music will be awesome!!!! It will be EXACTLY what GOD wants it to be…Whatever that is. I can not sit here and tell you what it will be come October, how could I? I am obviously not making rational decisions in this last couple months of preg, how can I tell the future. One of my great friends told me the other day “It won’t be anything you do, it will be what God does, HE hasn’t forgotten about you.”
That made me ball. I have such faith, but I have to practice it, let it really live, not just be something I say. GOD HAS GIVIN ME A BABY!!!!! What an incredible gift!!
I can have it and do it all, but I just can not do it all at the same time. I have to give this baby my attention for while. He deserves that! I want that!
I have to speak it, we have to speak it! The enemy wants us to go around talkin smack…I hate my body, I will never be skinny again, I will never be good at tennis, my dog is dumb, I mean i do not know what y’all say to yourselves, but if you are like me, you not only say it to the mirror and your head, you say it to others…I do truly believe this is where I have been gettin more down. SPREADING DARKNESS and NEGATIVITY!!!
Yes I be spreadint the light today son….You see me, you see happy and content, come look. I bet cha $14 dollar.
THESE IS CHANGED PEOPLE!